First, I'd like to thank God, my Son, my Mom ... Yeah, yeah. I know I'm not some celebrity receiving a superficial award for flashing, um, appearing in a nude scene or setting box office records for the amount of folks that came to see my naughty bits.
For a gal who has gone through heck and back though, you guys are my V.I.P.'s, my support team, my friends. You've stuck by me through all the moves, the drama, the redemption (yep, that's what I'm calling this phase of my life now LOL).
My Facebook profile says, "Offline, online, new or old. All of my friends are special to me and I learn from each of you every day. Thank you for being you. You are appreciated." I mean that. Sincerely.
Some of you know me from back in the day. When I wore huge glasses and we sported that rooster bang thing. (For the pervs out there, I'm talking about 80's/90's hair!) Don't even get me started on the "cool" clothes we wore! LOL
Some of you have never met me in person but provide me with so much guidance just by being who you are. You may not ever have realized it but there are some of you I totally look up to and - admittedly - stalk via social media. I'm looking at pretty much all my #agchat Tweeple here and a whole bunch others. If I had to name every one of you, this post would be a heck of a lot longer!
Now comes the guilty confession.
The lens I look at the world through has shifting. It's taken me 32 years to get to this point but I finally had an "aha moment" with regard to my hometown area.
One of my Mom's best friends has a son who has impressed me with his intelligence, kindness and "let's do this" attitude. He doesn't know I'm talking about him so I'm going to withhold his name in order to protect his privacy. He should recognize himself if he ever reads this though.
Before anyone teases me, no, I'm not kissing up or trying to get into his pants or anything. Not that there's anything wrong with him. I'm sure he's got a fan club. I just honestly respect the guy. A guy. From my hometown area no less. This is big for me.
Anyway, this guy has totally surprised me and turned everything I thought about this area on it's head. I'm sure he's literally seen the surprise on my face when he says something - I can't help it, my face is like an open book! How do I explain my perpetual weirdness without saying something that sounds ... wrong? LOL
The lens I look through was cloudy. Marred by my past. It wasn't allowing me to see the possibilities, the goodness around me and the changes that have been/are taking place here. I was letting the way I saw the world in my past and my more recent disillusionment to taint my vision.
Truly, no one is perfect. In addition to the myriad of public faux pas we commit, we all have our guilty little secrets. Sometimes hidden in our minds, on our hard drives (computer repair is interesting work sometimes), via a secret identity online or some other format. (Which one is yours? Which one is mine? LOL) The world will, sadly, be forever filled with injustice, strife and our attempts to rectify that. To expect more than a human effort is to expect to win the lottery when you haven't even purchased a ticket.
This last week, I was wondering if it would work. If I could stay here and be okay. Then my "aha moment"-uttering dude spoke, the clouds parted and the sun shone through like my soul was a dirty window in a Windex commercial. Uh, well, maybe it wasn't quite that dramatic but hey, you get where I'm going with this, right?
Show them with your actions.
Yep. I will, my friend (if I may I call you that). Starting with gratitude to all those who've helped me. Knowingly or unknowingly. I must have done something really good in a past life to be so blessed. Or maybe God was just waiting for me to open my flipping eyes. LOL
Thank You (God) and thank you all. I'd give ya'll a hug but there's so many of you and you're all spread out so far in every direction. I'm also not used to physical affection other than the mother/son kind I have with CJ. So, instead of wrestling you to the ground and tickling you until you chortle with laughter, here's a virtual {grateful-to-know-you hug} instead. =)
Wishing you much peace, happiness and success,
Pearl "Penny" Lane, C.P.C.
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