Thursday, while CJ and I prepared for my Mom's surprise birthday dinner, we found out that a relative lost one of his twin girls. A little bun, just 3 months in the womb.
Friday was another cousin's birthday (he worked) and Mom's dinner. Although today is actually her birthday, we generally do something the night before so that she can be open to invitations today and we won't feel left out or slighted somehow.
It is a very disconcerting - somewhat guilty - feeling to be celebrating life while someone else was mourning.
Yet, my Mom is officially 70 now. As much as I wish she'd live forever, we're human. Regardless, of whether she, I, or CJ goes first, I want to cherish and celebrate the time we have together.
That doesn't mean that we partied up a storm. We had a subdued but pleasant dinner and tried hard not to get on the merry-go-round of why's and the significance of death.
Only G-d knows why this death and why death in general. Honestly, I'd rather let Him do His thing because it's too much for me to wrap my brain around. So many people, so much emotion!
Don't wait for something to be perfect. LIVE! Live now. We don't know how long we have and some little souls never have the chance to live at all. Make each day matter to you. Revel in each gift of sight, sound, taste, touch, and feeling.
Celebrate life!
Have fun, stay safe, and G-d bless,
Penny
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